So yeah a little update things for me and Chelsea are doing alot better, though there are still a few things that could be better. I wont get into too much detail, but all i know is that im probably the most understanding lenient boyfriend on the planet, but im getting kinda sick of it. Everyone ive talked too has said they think she is going to cheat on me, well, honestly i dont think she will or ever would, just because to me she is not that type of person. And yeah i am probably too understanding and at some times it may seem like im getting walked all over, but from now on when i have an opinion about something or someone im not gonna hold it in, If she wants to get mad let her... if she doesnt like it tough, im done feeling like im gonna lose her everytime i have a question or feel a certain way or have a thought on something... if she truely loves me she;ll understand but yeah... so hopefully now we can move on and put this all behind us and yes im still waiting for this supposed mindblowing make up sex lol hopefully tomorrow but we'll see.....;-D

Other than that im jobless yet a fucking gain damn place is starting to piss me the hell off!!!!!

So, im in a weird sort of extremely depressed stage where im not crying, im not sad, im not happy and nothing can make me smile. Apparently a so called friend has caused such huge problems in her family that i may have lost my one true love forever, Right now we are on a "break" where we can both see someone else, but i already told her, i wont. I will not even attempt to see anyone, and she still wants me to talk to her cuz there is a "99% chance" that she'll come back to me, and she had the nerve to get upset when i told her there was that 1% chance that id be gone if she did come back... so yeah, if i seem a little down, just dont worry about it, it'll oass.....i hope.....

Is it wrong for me to be worried if my girlfriend is starting to talk to another guy but just as friends? i have female friends, and i have no problem with her having guy friends, but when he is a main cause in a huge fight that almost breaks us up and when im trying to talk to her on the phone every 2 seconds its well hang on a sec, hes texting me hang on i gotta text him, oh hes so funny he just texted me" i kinda get worried.......i just really dont know what to do anymore.......

WARNING! This blog is pretty much just so i can vent about something and just get it out there somewhere because certain people I would talk to about it are currently unavailable...


So my girlfriend and I have been pretty serious as some people know, and have planned to move in with each other as soon as she turns 18. However there was a snag in that plan and now she is going to wait until after she graduates high school, which I can understand, its some bullshit with the school systems with her enrollment. BUT NOW, her dad has to go and fuck things up even MORE! aftrer talking to her for a long time about after she graduates and everything she tells me tonight she doesnt want to because her dad (who is a fucking dick to her and treats her like his personal servant by the way) asked her not to so she said she wouldnt. Also, she tells me her grandpa said the same thing. I just dont understand why she doesn't understand ITS HER FUCKING LIFE!!! NOT THEIRS!!! When she is out of that house they cannot tell her how to live her life or wat do do... and her dad keeps trying to control her as much as humanly possible but anytime i try to say anything about any of it she gets all pissed off so I've pretty much given up with even bringing it up... its just not worth it to talk to her about it. Just after everything her and I have been through after all the problems her father caused us and after everything he did to her, it just pisses me off that she still will do what he asked.. andI know it sounds a bit selfish but i dont care how strong he feels about it... just because he didnt do something when he was younger does not mean he knows what will happen in her life... i just know its going to be at least 4 to 5 years before we get married and I honestly dont want to wait that long just to live with her... its fucking bullshit

Yeah so i know i talk about my baby alit in some of these but still, i write what i think about...

I never truely realized until today how she can turn my day around. After having a shitty morning i texted her and was still in a bad mood... well, when i called her as soon as i heard her voice it seemed like every care in the world had dissappeared. The thought of being able to see her today, even if only for an hour or so, to be able to touch her skin, smell her hair, gaze into her eyes then kiss her soft lips.... just made this day sooooooo much better i really do truely love her and would die without her....

Only in America ....
do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.

Only in America .......do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke

Only in America ......do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters..

Only in America .....do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.

Only in America ......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.

Only in America ......do we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning 'bloodsucking creatures'.

Only in America ......do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering?

EVER WONDER ....

Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?

Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?

Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?

Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?

Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?

Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?

Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?

Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?

Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?!

Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?

yeah so again, i forgot or was too lazy to do this, but i got a little bit of time so what the hell

life is good and bad right now for me i guess, i finally got my job back after only 2 damn months of being out of work, but i did get first shift, and honestly, i enjoyed the time because me and chelsea spent like almost every day together which i really needed even if she really doesnt know how much it ment to me... but yeah, so my parents know we r dating again and are cool and just alot....ALOTT of drama not with her this time but her family... we did all we could but i guess some people (i.e. her parents) will never change no matter what... but i've given up trying to help her with that cuz everything i tell her to do or try she says she will but doesnt so yeah, whatever....

like i said i got my job back 1st shirt which is good cuz i have my afternoons and evenings back but it also means i gotta get up around 4 for work and leave my house by 410 in the morning..but as long as i get like at least 3 hours of sleep im good... thats what weekends are for anyways lol plus its worth it so i can see my baby after she gets out of school if she's not working that particular day plus this shift is actually teaching me new things.. welding, grinding, crane operations, ect... all very interesting stuff lol uh huh

another good thing is that i can continue to play volleyball with my sister on thursday nights, which is cool cuz our team is doing really good so far this time


so lets see.....yeah i know i havent gotten to spend much time with the group (which the only ppl who read this are WRP members anyways) so sorry about that but i do plan on starting to come more often here as soon as i get money and get my car fixed again....lol